I missed this blog over the holidays, missed sharing my rambling thoughts with all you good folks out there! But I must confess: the computer was intentionally left behind on the holidays for much needed break.
My perspective was fresh upon returning and I can’t wait to tell you what I’ve been thinking about! There are changes coming down the pipe in my home…and for Better Living!
YEAR END CONTEMPLATION
I’m not a New Year’s resolution type of gal. But one thing I do appreciate about the Christmas/New Year season is that it gives time to reflect on the past 12 months.
Another year of life has gone by. Did I pursue better living? Am I still headed toward my goals? Have I held onto healthy habits? Is there something in my life that needs to change?
This year the evaluation began sooner than normal. In the fall, actually. I was feeling a lack of purpose in a way that couldn’t be ignored.
A BULLFROG OUT OF WATER
A bullfrog out of water. That’s how I felt. Maneuvering on land, making due outside of my natural habitat.
This battle with illness and chronic fatigue has drastically changed my life’s rhythm. I used to love working outside the home, enjoyed making connections with other people. Work was part of life and until I had children, it would continue to be part of my world. So I thought.
Ha! We have our plans while reality has it’s way! Today I’m a homemaker and wife, but without kids. And I’ve been floundering with this “stay-at-home” stuff. How does one live this lifestyle well? With purpose?
I have friends, but can’t interact with people as I have in the past, as frequently as I would like. The same quiet, empty house greets me every morning. Along with cleaning, cooking, laundry, dish washing. But who am I kidding? Sometimes I overlook these while I waste hours online.
I need goals and a purpose! Something to apply myself to! I need to feel the sting of loss and the thrill of victory. I need to live.
There has to be more to life than this.
PRAYING, THINKING AND SEARCHING
I began praying for purpose. I pursued a few ideas but none really seemed ‘right.’
To me, better living means I have something to invest myself into. In the past, that investment has been people.
How does it all work? I just didn’t know. So I continued searching for answers.
One day, an idea entered my mind as I drove back from visiting a friend. Slowly light shone in and suddenly, I knew I’d found a part of my purpose.
A HOME OF HOSPITALITY
Due to low energy I couldn’t always leave the house. But I could learn to have others in. My home could become a place where I could connect, minister to others and give. It could become a place I shared those in my life.
From the very location I’d wondered, wrestled and prayed, an answer had made appearance.
As I stewed over this idea, my eagerness grew. It’s the home that is falling apart in our world today. Unstable. Often associated with hurt and pain.
I’m not perfect. Neither is my home. But God has extended His love to us. And we can share it with others. In our home.
Over the weeks that followed my enlightenment, I found the focusing changing from the home to self. Hospitality takes energy. Was I gearing mine in the right direction? Was I actually taking care of myself so that I could give? So that my home was a pleasant place to be?
Were there things in my life that were draining me? How would I address them? Things that energized me? Did I need more? Could I somehow eliminate stress by developing better life habits? How was I using the time and strength I did have?
As I examined my life, I began to feel…regretful. I had allowed damaging patterns to slip in. I wasn’t truly caring for myself. Just floating along with whatever was easiest and in so doing, had encouraged emptiness and lack of purpose.
Yes, I saw room for improvement.
THE NEED FOR CHANGE
I needed to be intentional in my daily choices. Even in managing the house! It was time to smash the road blocks in my life.
If I could better manage my time, I would be more likely to have energy when needed. Perhaps if I got on top of managing my household duties, having company would involve less stress. Maybe I could develop a simple meal plan to help me feel freer!
It began unfolding before me. If I was going to see hospitality as part of my purpose, I was going to have to take care of myself and my home.
AN INVITATION TO JOIN ME
Since beginning to implement new patterns in both my home and personal life, I’ve seen change. Folks, it’s good. So good, that over the course of the next month I will be sharing about it on the blog.
And I invite you to join me! This series is specifically geared toward stay-at-home women and will delve into personal life and household management.
Sound overwhelming? The changes I’ve made/make are simple and require mini-minutes of time in your day. I believe in starting small. Whatever I implement must be sustainable for even a low-energy gal!
And so ladies? I’d love to have you on board! While I will be posting personal notes and encouragement on my facebook page, I highly recommend you go through this series with someone. No computer on earth can offer the encouragement of a real-deal human being!