The search can be difficult. For every bit of discouragement we face (seeing the ideal but so-far-out-of-our-price-range properties), the hunt also holds intrigue and excitement. We search willingly and with hope! Having previously hashed through our non-negotiables (which I highly recommend doing), the search has been fun for my man and I!
When it comes to purchasing property, everyone wishes for and can afford something different! This simple couple wishes for a few acres on which we can garden, raise our heritage turkeys, a dairy goat or two, space to add fruit trees and a root cellar. We want land to raise our children on, to bring them them up with responsibility and work!
While some may laugh at the simplicity of our ambitions, my man and I are on the same page: we want simple, wholesome living! And I have to say, setting out on a never-before experienced quest has caused this first-time purchaser to ponder: exactly how does one decided on a home and land?
My man and I started out renting, gave this valley a 1 year living trial. At the end of it, we decided it was indeed a place we’d like to stay and raise a family. After celebrating with a homemade supper at a nearby lake, it was settled! But there were still obstacles (such as my man’s schooling) in the way. We also decided regardless of the situation we would not rush headlong into anything. Though we’re taking it slow, I can feel the shift, the excitement of an upcoming change.
Due to ongoing health concerns, there are some non-negotiables that catch us. We can’t do just any home unless we know for certain there is no mold and or animal residue. Unless the building is gutted, how can we know for certain? And we can’t afford to rent, purchase and remodel a home unless it sold for very, very cheap. We consider this unlikely to happen and have settled for the idea of building a home ourselves. Our desire is for bare land. The plan revolves around a simple, rustic, cottage-like house on a slab, one that could convert into a shop later, if needed. Plans are drawn up (bonus of having a carpenter husband!) and local realtor offices have been visited. We have been driving around, looking, thinking, praying.
How does it work? As a follower of Jesus, does this decision matter? Does He have a specific plan for us? I’ve prayed often since we began searching: “Lord, see fit to bless us, oh please! See fit to bless us. We want to make a wise decision!”
What do I mean? I’m asking for a clear, open door, a simple bit of land that will suit our need for growing nutritious food through garden and animals, one that will suit our simple lifestyle, a place that is not so far out we are completely isolated from others, land that falls within a price range we can afford!
Is there a clear bell that will ring one day and we’ll know “this is it?” What happens if a piece of land comes up in a beautiful location, has everything we wanted and even more? What if it falls comfortably in our price range, but both my man and I are at unrest over it? Something doesn’t seem right? Peace. The peace is lacking while logic says “why wait?!” Its a real situation we have before us this moment. How does one maneuver through it?
At this point, we wait, wait and wait some more while asking the question:
As followers of Jesus, what should we expect from Him? There have been times in the past where we’ve known the best decision to make. Somehow, things were clear before us. Other times, circumstance forced us in one direction or another. At the time, it seemed we were moving according need. Upon looking back a year or two later, we cannot deny that He has been with us, supporting us, holding us, opening doors and extending kindness toward us.
Both. We’ve experienced both. Which one will it be in this situation?
What will the “go ahead” look like? I can’t say for certain, but the conclusion I’m slowly arriving at is this: I won’t know until it happens! And until it does, the best choice is to remain open, to hold things with open hands and walk in wisdom. Feeling hesitation? Then wait! If all doorways seem to open before us, proceed with confidence. If the door suddenly closes, let it go.
I wish to remember in it all: life is about more than getting ahead, more than setting my foot on a piece of land, being able to say “its mine.” As a follower of Jesus, I want to remember that all I have is really His.
I don’t know how or if a direct answer will come. I don’t know if the land and home we purchase will set us up and afford what we deem as “success.” Perhaps God has something difficult for us to learn? Am I willing, for the sake of a greater purpose to willingly go through the open door?
Meanwhile, I can exercise wisdom through waiting. I can continue to ask for God’s guiding. I can live in hope, a hope that carries my sight beyond owning land. I can trust that He knows us and is working in our lives, regardless of the outcome of our situation.
Amen? And amen.